& there I found myself, trying to find my own source of escaping alone. Scrolling down social sites, opening apps- what was I looking for?
There I found myself in the reoccurring pattern that never changes. Pushing people out, my own father was in the room across from mine, yet I choose to separate us behind the door. What was I looking for?
Giving the news, gathering all the empty responses, all the empty remarks of hope, Be positive? Do you not know who I am?
How can this possible make this family stronger?
because I have to interact with people who think the world revolves around them and no one or nothing matters.
STRATEGY TO FIND OWN PLACE
1.) Magically make closest friends finacially stable to be able to withstand monthly payments and expenses. (Please & thank you)
2.) Move in with already finacial stable 30 year old dude. (It sounds sketchy because it is)
3.) Hurry up & finish undergraduate courses, research, publications, pass GRE, get accepted into a badass graduate school and move. (minimum of 2 years)
4.) Start dating finacially stable person, hope they are emotionally stable and honest, and move out. (Gambling psychological, emotional, and financial trauma)
5.) Move with friends that you know are financially unstable but are as desparate as you. Enjoy the ride for a month, then call it a day. (Is it better to have loved and lost?)
6.) Find random strangers who also need a roommate. (BEWARE of serial killers, psyopaths, rapists, racists, sexists, creeps, liars, unstable personnel, mentally distressed, unreliable, dishonest, argumentative people…..ETC.)
7.) None of the above. (Forever feel entrapped with the absense of a comforting home)